“I missed you..!”
“Wasn’t that your choice?”
“I don’t think so. May be, I didn’t expect this to happen when I made the choice.”
“Is this a moment of weakness?”
“I don’t want it to be just a moment.”
“What do you want it to be then?”
“I want to know what it is.”
“Will you regret this later?”
“I don’t know. I may. I may not. But I don’t want to stop myself at this moment.”
“I will not stop you if you say that. What do you want to talk?”
“I don’t know what to talk. I don’t know what to ask. But, I definitely know that I want to talk.”
“Are you confused?”
“Not in my thoughts. May be, in my words or in the conversion of thoughts into words. May be, I am just nervous. May be, I am just excited to talk to an old friend.”
“Hmmm...”
“You changed.”
“Yes, I did. I changed the way you asked me to and became the person you wanted me to be… except that you weren’t there. And I changed not because you asked me to. I changed because I had to.”
“You never asked anything that day. You just wanted to leave.”
“I never asked you anything the day you entered. So, I did not deserve to ask you that day. I just had to accept it and I did.”
“Didn’t you want to fight it?”
“Perhaps, I would have hadn’t you said earlier that you did not want to help it.”
“Why did you have to return those?”
“I did not want to carry any memories. I wanted to forget them. But then I realized that forgetting a memory is a contradiction and contradictions do not exist.”
“Did that realization help?”
“Yes. I realized that the only thing that can be changed with memories is the way we look at them. When those are special, we associate with them emotionally. Else, they become just objective memories.”
“Why do you escape pain? Pain is such a beautiful thing!”
“I don’t escape pain. I avoid suffering. Because I realized the unimportance of it.”
“I didn’t want to say those words which can give you complete control over me. Moreover, I felt that the emotion required to complete the relation for a life time could not be put in such a few words.”
“I understood that very clearly. I knew the reality too. I wanted to fight it. If not, I wanted the same emotion to remain for the most time only when it is possible.”
“I was afraid to join the ocean.”
“You were seeing the sharks. But I was seeing the endless water there.”
“I want my friend back. I want to share some more moments and have some more memories.”
“You do have friends!”
“I want the friend I used to wait for long to meet. I want the friend for whom I used to cry. I want the friend I missed and am missing. Most importantly, I want my friend to have a friend. For the sake of the memories that were sweet. For the sake of those moments that were special. For the sake of the friendship that was.”
