A basic question which props up in my mind now and then, why do I ask so many questions??Why am I so inquisitive about things? This is one more question. I know that I won’t be getting answers for every question I ask. Leave every question, I won’t be getting answers for almost all the questions I ask, except for a few. Even then I keep asking questions. I ask people or I ask myself. When I ask people, they think me to be stupid, stubborn, foolish etc..etc…etc…. When I ask the same to myself, I respond to it with another question and they continue. What reasons I find to be intellectual seems stubborn to many. What I find to be inspirational seems outdated to many. So, where is the fault? Is it inside me? Or is it inside everyone? If I say that the fault is in everyone, people say that I am overconfident and haughty. If I say that the fault is in me, I am undermining myself and giving a chance for everyone to blame me or criticize me. So…should I change myself? If I change, where does my own individuality remain? When I say this, people say it is ego problem. Some ask me to stop thinking about such things and control my mind. But did Albert Einstein or Srinivasa Ramanujan or for that matter, Socrates control their mind? Had they controlled, would they have become as great as we know them to be? They thought, let their brains and minds do their work and achieved what others could not. Does this mean that I want to be like them? Can I be like them? Can I even dream that? Yeah….dreaming is not a problem. Everybody has the right to dream anything. I can dream myself of killing Osama-bin-Laden or someone teaching Dr.A.P.J. Abdul Kalam the science of nanotechnology or Einstein the theory of relativity. Dreams, right? Anything can happen in them. Where do these many questions lead me to? Do they lead me to anything? Am I really expecting an answer for all the questions I’ve asked so far? What do I want?? Is this becoming too philosophical? Shouldn’t I be philosophical? Should only be a person renouncing his worldly pleasures be philosophical and not a guy of around 20 yrs of age be? Then, am I a person renouncing everything and taking up sanyasa ashram? Then, would I be a sitting in front of a computer writing this blog as well as doing everything everyone does in their normal life? Many questions to handle, right? I know. For every question you answer, I have a question ready for you. Finally(not really), is it good to be so inquisitive? Perhaps, after reading all this, I guess I can be sure that you’ll think of me to be the most complicated, complex, confused guy you’ve ever known. Am I really? “To be complex is simple, but to be simple is very complex”. Am I simple in a complex way? Or complex in a simple way? Now, you’re getting confused, right? Anyways, I’m leaving you in a state of confusion. Hope my next blog is not as confusing as this. I’ll try…..
Okay now this is something apparently suuper confusing yet beautiful...Confusing I say cz I actually gt cnfused as I reached the end...And beautiful I say coz all of us must have had this chain thinking at various points of our time...Serously or jus like that...And somehow expressing it into the right words is sorta difficult...The desciption fits perfectly!!! Try thinking when you are jobless sometime...Thoughts would just flow in the similar order!
ReplyDeleteur, i feel, simple in a complex way. i say this because all your questions, your thoughts, your feelings, your imaginations are simple to hear but complex to answer. there are some idiotic un-written rules that a 20 yr old shud be chirpy, naughty, cheerful, work minded and only then is he treated to be healthy. When something is already engraved on a rock, and one feels its not right, he wants to change it but can he?? NO. but he surely can engrave,deeply, the right thing on a bigger rock.may be, its a matter of time before many would realize that even a 20 yr old can be philosophical. ridiculous that a person has to be phylosophical only at a certain age..very few know or remember that even a birth n growth of a person is phylosophical...
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